Stop That.

Color mood of the day: CC9966

Yesterday I woke up thinking ‘Fuck, I can’t breathe’.

It is one of the worst realizations a person could have.

I managed to pull myself together and drag myself into my brother’s car where he took me to the only open-on-Sundays clinic in Bangsar. It was so difficult to talk, difficult to walk, difficult to think and as I got strapped on the Nebulizer, I couldn’t figure out how it would feel like to be breathing again.

After I got injected with Liquid Ventolin by a huge needle because the Nebulizer couldn’t clear everything, my breathing felt better but my entire body was trembling and twitching.

And it still hasn’t stopped. I slept a record of 20 hours the past day, waking up this morning at 4am to watch Teen Witch (yes, the 1989 movie) on Youtube and passing out again. Teen Witch really does make it as a cult classic, does anyone else remember this movie?

Today I still feel like I’m deep in the well, looking up at a light right up there, not really recognizing it just yet. I’m foreseeing Wednesday to be back up to 100% power.

Good news?

I’m flying to Bali this weekend! For 3 days of continuous eye and spirit surprises with Martin. The new moon on the 24th makes transforming changes, I wonder what this would be.

The I in illness is isolation, and the crucial letters in wellness are we. - quoted in The Heart Speaks: A Cardiologist Reveals the Secret Language of Healing. So heal, we will.

Apart from that, I’ve been working on Psyyang, the Malaysian psychedelic clothing and decor store.

So here’s a clip from Teen Witch. I remembered rapping this when I was about 7 or 8. It’s an embarrassing memory, but an awesome movie.

And I do like boys.

~ by Farida on April 20, 2009.